1st July 2008

1st day of a new Financial year. Everyone seems to be taking financial stock and audit of the previous year. Wish we did the same Spiritually. Take stock and audit our Spiritual life for the year just passed. The objective seems to be to pay as less tax as possible. We may be able to evade taxes financially. Alas! Is that possible Spiritually?

Tulasidas final verse in the Ramayan is

KAMAHI NARI PYARI JIMI LOBHAHI PRIYA JIMI DAAM

TIMI RAGHUNATH NIRANTARA PRIYA LAGE MOHE RAAM

Oh Merciful LORD! Just Like a lusty person always thinks of women and a greedy person's mind is always submerged in money (daam), similarly, I pray that I have the love for the LORD (kaami) and the greediness in chanting and taking your name thereby building nama wealth.

A day gone without much chanting. Just Worldly stuff. Read some of guruji's articles. And worked on the website. Still reading about Kevat (Nishaad).

Kevat's life proves that one does not need Sadhan in their life. Only await and rely on the Kripa of the LORD. In this world we think whatever is rare (durlabh) is precious, ...however with the LORD... He shows that if you believe that GOD is durlabh, he will meet you after incessant sadhana like Manu. However if you realise the LORD is sulabh (easily attained) then HE meets via Kripa Marga.

Shri Ram's Avtaar demonstrated that the Deena, heena, dejected and rejected have a place in the LORD's heart and they can easily attain HIM...Look at the monkey's who are the symbolism of Chanchalta (unsteadyness) and Geedh Jayatu, Nishaad, Shavari.

Srimad Bhagwatam states

Vyadhasya Acharanam Dhruvasya cha vayah

Vidya Gajendrasya Ka Ka Jathir Vidurasya

Yadava patheyr Ugrasya Kim Paurusham

Kubjayaha Kamaneeya ruupam adhikam Kim?

Kim that Sudhamnasyo Dhanam

Bhakthya Thushyati kevalam

What is the achara of Vyadha? What is the education of Gajendra? What is the Caste of Vidura? Was Ugra (Yadu King) manly? What is the charisma of Kubja? Was Sudhama Rich? Madhava gives salvation not on the basis of qualities (inherent or acquired) but only on the basis of faith)

Oh Lord! When will you look at this fallen soul and bestow on him your ahaituki Kripa for I know not any Sadhana, I have not any Bhakti?

Frequently I hear people having anubhavas with YOU and YOUR holy name my LORD. With firm belief I believe them...but am left with a hollow feeling in the heart...thinking WHEN I may experience a glimpse of your Divinity....Then I realise..why would I...I have no such qualities.

Then I ask, Can qualities be a pre-requisite for experiencing you...Surely Not!

Patit jano ko karo puneetaa, He Rama Sita He Rama Sita!!!

Time for Bed. You see...Excepting TAMAS (mode of Ignorance) is so easy and natural for me.

IF only..........IF only..... IF only........

Radhe Radhe